Mission

"Awak nak main untuk individu kata? Saya boleh masukkan nama awak. I have the right to do so"

That was what he said to me, back then, in the cafe, two years ago. I was flattered. I gave him my blur-face as in "wh-what?" but in fact, I was so, so happy. And tonight. It was him, again.

"For female individu kata, suhaila"

Exactly two years later. But this time, he was not asking me. He gives it to me. Right to my face. Mandatory. And how are your feeling? Indescribable. I have work a lot, a lot to put my feelings away. To keep my Do. And to do. Just like me two years ago. Very innocent. Very spiritual.

This is my last Masum. Probably. My grand finale. How could I destroy this? Could you? Another 4 weeks to go. To my SI, I will not disappoint you, again and again. In fact, I will make you proud. This so-called 'talented' girl will make you proud. My stage. My game. For you.

Thank you SI. Thank you. So. Much.

Praktikal: The Amanie

Nak cerita tentang praktikal aku.


Lagi seminggu je lagi nak habis dah. Sekejapnya masa berlalu. Dulu punyalah macam nak gila cari tempat praktikal. Berjuta surat, email aku hantar, semua company tak respon haha. So untuk semua, aku bermurah hati nak bagi tips macam mana korang nak senang dapat tempat praktikal tanpa perlu bersusah hati.


Tips yang pertama dan satu-satunya tips yang ada: Lepas hantar application korang tu, dalam masa 3 ke 4 hari masa bekerja terus contact company tu tanya tentang status application korang tu. Then kalau tak dapat, proceed la ke company lain pulak.


Masa zaman hingusan aku cari tempat praktikal dulu, silap aku ialah aku tak call company tu after hantar resume aku. Lagi 3 minggu praktikal nak start baru aku tau ghupanya memang kena call company tu after kita hantar resume kita tu. Sebab, kemungkinan company tu tak bukak email or surat yang kita hantar tu pun. Haihh nasiblah badan. Lepas aku tau, terus aku contact company tu, certain company jelah sebab aku dah lupa company apa yang aku approach haha. Then baru dia orang respon, ada yang cakap dah penuh la, ada yang missing in action and paling tak tahan kebanyakan company yang aku approach tu ghuper nya tak ambik pun intern kat company dia orang. Punyalah aku tunggu macam bulan jatuh ke riba tengok2 bulan pun takde camne nak jatuh?


Sedih, rasa nak tumbuk diri sendiri pun ada waktu tu. Anyway, company yang aku tengah praktikal sekarang ni namanya Amanie Global Technology Sdn Bhd. Mesti tak pernah dengar, kan? Aku pun masa tu first time jugak dengar. Tak sangka jodoh aku dengan company ni. Alkisahnya macam ni. Pertengahan semester haritu, uia buat career fair, so banyaklah jugak company datang, Amanie ni salah satunya. Aku pergi dengan Wan waktu tu. Kita orang pergilah booth Amanie ni and person in charge tu pun cakaplah Amanie ni company bla bla bla.. Then dia suruh kita orang tulis nama and course and kita orang pun tulis jelah. 2 minggu lepas tu kot, aku dapat email, Amanie suruh datang ada interview pergh. Kawan aku, Wan tak dapat sebab dia pilih yang course Islamic Finance je. Aku pun macam steady jelah padahal dalam hati gabra sebab tak pernah kena interview sebelum ni. Eh ada. First time interview biasiswa sukan so ni second time ah. Orang tu suruh buat some background research tentang Amanie. Nasib baik dia cakap kalau tak aku nonong je pergi interview tu taktau apa-apa.


Company Amanie ni kat Menara Binjai. Sebelah stesen LRT Ampang Park je. Masa aku masuk Menara Binjai tu macam jakun jugaklah. Tak pernah masuk office corporate kahkah. Dah sampai tu and nama aku kena panggil, masuk dalam meeting room tu tadaa ada 5 orang. Dan aku seorang. 5 lawan 1 pergh. Lutut aku dah gigil masa tu. Dah ah aircond bapak sejuk. Anyway, okay je dia orang interview aku. Santai and casual. Tapi sebab aku macam tak berkeyakinan (pointer rendah je babe), so aku agak gugup jugaklah. Aku dapat rasakan muka aku pucat.


Lepas habis interview tu, aku ada lah jugak approach company lain. Berlambak kot. Dah malas approach personally, aku pi guna jobstreet pulak. Macam takde function je guna tu. Memang dah terdesak nak cari sebab tak dapat mana-mana tempat lagi, aku contact jugak Amanie, tanya macam mana tentang status aku. Dia tak balas. 2 minggu lepas tu dia contact aku (akhirnya!) cakap aku diterima. Nak dijadikan cerita, seminggu lepas tu pulak ada satu company tu MBf Holdings offer aku tempat praktikal, bahagian finance pulak tu. Pergh tough decision beb. Keduanya bagi sama banyak elaun. Akhirnya aku pilih Amanie sebab Amanie lagi dekat and Amanie ni company yang memang khusus dalam Islamic Finance. Hug hug Amanie.


Korang nanti nak cari tempat praktikal tu carilah dengan 'work smart' bukannya 'work hard' macam aku ni. Haishh. Ada kawan sama course dengan aku dapat elaun double daripada aku weh. Kerja dia pun double jugaklah. Hahaha. Yang penting, kerja kat Amanie tak stress dan environment dia sangat islamik. Apa kata korang try praktikal kat Amanie dan rasainya sendiri (ceh promote).


Oh, by the way. Amanie ni ada banyak subsidiaries. Amanie Global Technology salah satunya. Company aku ni bahagian core banking system. Tapi kerja aku lebih kepada support service, administration and research je.


Ok bye.

Iftar versi grand

Tahun 2014. Ramadhan tahun ni rasa berbeza daripada tahun-tahun sebelum ni. Tahun ni aku ber-puasa dalam waktu internship. Oh tak cerita pun kan. Aku intern dekat company Amanie Global Technology Sdn Bhd. Company business solution khusus dalam Islamic Finance. Anyway. Haritu, minggu lepas rasanya, company aku buat iftar untuk semua staff dalam rangkaian Amanie Holdings cawangan Kuala Lumpur, and tempatnya dekat PNB Darby Park, The 39 Restaurant. Ohmaii. Restaurant tinggi melangit level 39. Rasa ala-ala romantik.

Nak sama tinggi dengan puncak menara Tabung Haji haa. View dia cantik. Disebabkan kita orang sampai restaurant tu nak dekat berbuka dah, so aku tak sempat nak tangkap gambar banyak-banyak. Bila dah kenyang, nak tangkap gambar pun macam tak best sbb view dah kureng, food semua dah habis haha. Oh aku nak buat review sebenarnya pasal restaurant ni. The 39 Restaurant ni sebenarnya restaurant ala-ala masakan melayu. So semuanya masakan melayu. Ada lebih 100 dishes. Standard lah kan. Comment aku, sedap! (thumbs up) (tak reti la wei nak bagi review haha)


Hari ni, abang aku pulak belanja buffet dekat The Gardens Hotel and Residences, The Spread. Disebabkan aku baruuu je makan kat buffet ni tadi, so masih segar lah dalam ingatan. Kasi review sikit.

Aku dgn family bertolak dari rumah pukul 6. Dah sampai area Mid Valley nak cari parking agak sakit lah bagi yang pertama kali datang. Sebab ada banyak zon parking. Sebelum ni selalu naik public je. Pusing punya pusing jumpa jugak Zon B parking. Dah masuk, alih-alih terpergi ke Zon C, terlajak masuk Midvalley mall, jauh jugaklah nak menapak ke The Garden. Dah sampai, naik ke level 6, tadaa dah nampak The Spread. Duduk kat kerusi terus minum air, penat.


Okay, ada apa dengan The Spread? Berbeza dengan The 39 Restaurant, The Spread offers variety of dishes. Pendek kata, macam-macam ada. Sebut je apa kau nak. Sushi, sashimi, oyster, noodles, spagetti, naan, waffles, manisan, rojak buah, segala macam bubur, aiskrim, cake, kambing golek, and even buah-buahan dusun pun ada, durian, manggis, buah mata kucing etc etc. Dia belah durian tu on the spot hokeh. Dan ada jugak food yang aku tak pernah dengar tapi rasa dia sedap, aku lupa nama dia apa.


Rate kedua-dua buffet ni lebih kurang je. Around RM115++ per person. Kalau saja-saja nak pergi merasa, memang tak lah, mahal. Baik aku guna duit tu pergi shopping raya. Disebabkan harga dia mahal, aku berusaha sumbat seberapa banyak makanan yang boleh disumbat ke dalam perut aku ni, balik je terus sakit perut urgh worth it! haha


p/s waktu balik tadi, aku berdiri sebelah abang aku. Eleh nak sama tinggi je hahahahaha

Karnival #SyriaNeedsYou

Went to kak intan's wedding at KL Tower and sempatlah tengok upacara pernikahan, and the most 'waaahhh' was the view, people, the view! Then, immediately shoot to Stadium Melawati, Shah Alam for Karnival #SyriaNeedsYou. Ada Rabbani, Hafiz Hamidun, Raqib, Diana Amir etc etc. The best experience eveeerrrr. Nantikan 28March ni pulak yay!

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Tak berkesempatan nak join tournament kat Seremban. Sad :(

Rescue

She thinks she's all alone and all her hopes are gone

and so I wrote this song so she can move along

Things were bad

She was in despair

Things were bad and you were never there

But things were bad, she came up for air

She said a little prayer, she found herself

Yeah she's got light in her face

She don't need no rescuing, she's okay

Yeah, she's got life in her veins

She don't need no rescuing she's okay

No S.O.S needed, no rescuing, she's fine out there

She looks into the sky

and all her tears are dry

she kiss her fears goodbye

She's gonna be alright

Things were bad, it was beyond repair

She was scare, she couldn't handle it

Things were bad, but now she's glad

Can't you tell that she's walking on air?

Yeah, she's got life in her veins

She don't need no rescuing she's okay

No S.O.S needed, no rescuing, she's fine out there

That girl is you yeah

and that girl is me,

that girl is stronger than the raging sea

Yeah, she's got life in her veins

She don't need no rescuing she's okay

No S.O.S needed, no rescuing, she's fine out there

The Sukipt

Tomorrow will be my event. I am so nervous and getting excited. This will be part of in my resume and will be my ticket in selection for AUG. I've been through hell and work very hard to be in this level. I will be facing the so-called enemy and this time I will definitely win. And I won.


But things didn't go according to my plan. For this life is not me who make the plan. It is He. Once, I came across to someone's status, " Don't be sad on something that you have lost. Maybe if you haven't lost it, your sadness would be greater".


Distracted myself into things which I do not used to. Hoping that this sorrow will fade away. Hoping that something better in return. Hoping that I am stronger than this.