Friday, May 27, 2011

Waiting Outside the Lines


You'll never enjoy your life
living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances
How you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations
Force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation
It's time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground
the time is now

I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting
I'm waiting, Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets
even if it's just for tonight
How you gonna walk ahead
If you keep living blind

Stuck in the same position
you deserve so much more
There's a whole world around us
Just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground
the time is now, just to let it go

Don't wanna have to force you to smile
I'm here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What's in you is out there

I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting
I'm waiting, Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

I'm trying to be patient
The first step is the hardest
I know you can make it
Go ahead and take it

I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting I'm waiting
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting
Waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

You'll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances
How you gonna reach the top?

take from:
Waiting Outside The Lines
Greyson Chance

p/s this song has been inspired me a lot :)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

confession of senorita


I thought I was okay. But it is definitely not! I thought I was happy. But somehow I can feel my heart whispers... "You're a superb hypocrite!"

'...Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps om my stairs
Six One month gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there
I was playing back a thousand memories baby
Thinking bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you

Come back come back come back to me like
You would you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside till I came out
Come back come back come back to me like
You could you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

Flashback to the night when you said to me
Nothing's gonna change not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose...'

Okay. That was a feeling that I felt a minute ago. Now, for the first time I feel the pain, the regret, the sadness. You're not 'in here' anymore. And we're nothing. You're nothing to me. And we're over in and out.
Close your eyes and pretend you didn't see a thing.
I guess it won't hurt that much then.

p/s i don't know where are the bloody polar go. in fact, who cares anyway?

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Sepetang di Kota Salji Silver


Okay. Aku tipu je. Kat Malaysia mana ada salji kan? Hujan je yang banyak. Hujan kan reflects dari salji. So, jadilah salji silver. Arggh! Metafora yang sangat dramatik!

"...I went to Kota Salji Silver yesterday with her. I brought her to let her know to share about what I am doing right now and I want her to be like me. She said she's not ready yet. But dear friend, you'll never know when you'll ready. Indeed, just grab the chance that I showed you. Chance or opportunity comes once in your life. You pray everyday to God to make you life better than yesterday. But when He gives you a way... you pushed it away. And then you pray again. What does that you want exactly? Give yourselves a chance, then it'll make your life fantastic!... Try it dear... Just like me... You'll never know until you do it! No hard feeling okay. Hehehe."


I once heard someone said to me... "Hidup tanpa matlamat ibarat sepak bola tanpa gol"

Nevermind... Papepon, seronok sangat jalan-jalan dengan kau. Dari satu butik ke satu butik. And and aiskrim mangga yang aku makan tu memang sedap gila dan durian belanda yang kau punya tu masam. Urgghh tak sedap langsung.

Okay. Itu cerita semalam. Cerita hari ini?

Aku terkaku dan mulutku membisu tatkala aku membaca sebaris ayat yang di-inbox kan kepada aku. Seakan salji gedebuk menghempap dan aku menggigil kesejukan di situ. Namun, tak dapat menghalang aku dari terus terlopong menatap sebaris ayat itu. Ayat yang terus menyebabkan aku duduk di situ tanpa berganjak. Sebaris ayat tanpa memaknakan sesuatu yang pasti.

hey...i'll miss u. bubbye. -sam-

Okay. What does it means, anyway? You are going somewhere? You are just off for a moment? Or..or.. what?? Don't let me think on something else lah dude!

Fine. Ayat tu mungkin boleh jadi seperti:
1) Hey. Aku ada kerja. Jumpa lagi. Seronok berkawan dengan kau. Or.
2) Halamak. Internet aku dah mereng lah. Terpaksa off. Babai. Or this.
3) Saya akan merindui awak. Haha. Joking. pffftttttt.

Then...
Okay. Maybe aku suka melebih lebih. But, who cares anyway? Saya memang begini. Hahaha. *gelak terpaksa*

p/s esok nak pergi reunion kat klcc. fuyooohh.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

See? Soalan sudah Terjawab!



Aku selalu terasa seperti tertembak diri sendiri apabila ada orang berkata:
Heh. Sombongnya dia”

Mana? Mana? Siapa sombong? Aku ker? Excuse me?!
Nah. Kau orang tak kenal aku, sesedap mulut je cakap macam tu eh. Tak kenal maka tak cinta tau. Tension makcik kalau hari-hari macam gini.

Aku selalu terasa umpama belati menusuk ke jantung yang paling dalam apabila ada orang berkata:
Sue ni gatal lah. Miang keladi”

Mana? Mana? Sesuki hati je eeh. Aku tak gatal lah. Aku peramah dengan orang je. Mak aku cakap orang berbudi kita berbahasa. Aku ikut pepatah melayu tau. Kau orang ada ke?

Aku selalu terasa seperti ada asap berkepul-kepul keluar dari telinga aku apabila ada orang berkata:
Pergi dry area pun nak suruh orang temankan. Penakut!”

Mana? Mana? Aku tak takutlah weh. Lagipun siapa yang suruh orang tu bercerita pasal kejadian menyeramkan yang berlaku kat tempat tu. Abang aku cakap kalau tiba-tiba rasa seram biar seram sama-sama. At least, kita berkongsi perasaan yang sama. I think its kinda sweet. LOL.

Aku selalu terasa nak bom orang yang berkata begini:
Kau sakai”

Mana? Mana? Helo. Aku sakai pun kau tetap panggil aku sayang. Cheh cheh. Biar lah. Aku sebagai duta dik cerdas berhak untuk menyebut perkataan b***k tu banyak-banyak kali aku suka tau. Lagipun ada ke kawan kau orang yang berperangai sweet macam aku ni? Takde kan. Ini bermaksud aku ni satu dalam sejuta. Mana lagi kau orang nak dapat sahabat macam aku ni? Kan kan kan? Hehehe.

Aku selalu terasa seperti lambat loading apabila ada orang berkata:
Sue, dia dah bagi hint! Grab him! Grab him NOW!!!”

Mana? Mana? Siapa? Mamat tu? Kita orang kawan jelah. Lagipun nanti dia perasaan handsome pulak. Hengat dia handsome sangat ker? Okay. Aku mengaku pasal dia handsome lah aku add dia kat facebook. And menyebabkan kawan aku lolipop lala dan makhluk yang memanggil aku sakai meng-add dia jugak. Cheh cheh. Sebok jer. Suka sangat stalk wall aku. Huk aloh.

Aku selalu terasa seperti muka aku bertukar semerah lampu isyarat yang warna merah tu apabila ada orang berkata:
Tengok tu. Comel lah dia ni”

Mana? Mana? Tang mana tu? Eheh. Dalam hati dah kembang kuncup dah. Hihihi. Tapi, kalau ada orang yang tanya, “Eh, sue. Apekebendanye kat muka kau tu. Yang biji-biji tu”... argghhhh! Memang sah-sah aku bertukar jadi Goku terus abugid sekor-sekor. Perhiasan kat muka aku ni jangan ditegur okay!

Tapi. Aku selalu terasa seperti dilanda penuh persoalan apabila diri aku sendiri berkata”

Apabila kau gembira...ya, kau akan ketawa”
Kerana kau meraikannya.

Apabila kau berasa sesuatu yang kelakar...ya, kau akan ketawa”
Kerana itu normal bagi seorang manusia.

Apabila kau sedih... kenapa kau juga akan ketawa?”
Even apabila kau berasa sakit? Even apabila kau berasa payah? Even kau berasa sepi apabila ditinggalkan seorang diri?

Kerana...ya, kau ketawa kerana kau berasa sedih. Kerana kau menghayati setiap titisan air mata itu dan menghargainya. Kerana dengan cara itu kau menjadi lebih kuat. Kerana kau ketawa untuk mencabar diri kau sendiri. Hidup cuma sekali. Nikmatinya sepuas mungkin.

Tapi. Bila fikirkan balik. Okay.

Aku selalu terasa nak sepak muka orang tu apabila dia berkata:
Awak sayang saya tak?”

Aku tau kau mesti nanti baca entry aku kali ni. Boleh tak jangan tanya soalan mengarut yang sama kat Formspring? Naik letih aku nak jawab. Rasa macam nak delete je. Tapi kesian pulak kat kau kan? Walaupun kau tanya as anynomyous, aku kenal lah hasil kerja kau. Okay. Ni last aku jawab. Ye. Aku sayang kau! Pehh. Gila jiwang ayat aku. Hahaha. Tapi you know, kan? Sayang sebagai kawan jelah.

Alaaaaaa...” aku tau mesti kau cakap macam tu kan? Hahahaha. Mestilah aku tau. Kita kan kembar. \(^0^)/

p/s aku... emm tengah merindui seseorang. Erk? Panassss... hehehe.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Saya Sayang Dia


Assalamualaikum.
Err... tiba-tiba nak masuk contest?
cheh cheh.

Yeah. I do love 'this person"
my heart seems to whisper.
but my lips cannot form those words.
i know my heart is calling out to you in a voice you've already heard.

And i called this person by a name
Lady of Superhero

 Mom.
I may not like you always.
We may have arguments and fights sometimes.
But there's one thing that you should know. I love you always and forever.

I'd jump in front of a train for you.

I'd make a sweet home for you

I'd colours your world with happiness

I'd grab an Eiffel Tower for you

I'd make you feel like a queen

Cause I'd make your wish come true

Yeahhh. I'll do. For you

Even a hundred of Jason come. I still would choose YOU!!!
Even a thousand of lelaki kachak yang datang.
Nah. Tak dapat dibandingkan dengan Mak!

Kerana dalam hidup seseorang.
Ibu adalah umpama mutiara.
Sesuatu yang indah.
Tersembunyi.
Namun.
tak dapat dinafikan.
Kekeuatannya.
Kasih sayangnya.
Terhadap dia yang bernama anak.

even it is a little bit late
i want to wish
HAPPY MOTHER DAY!
shela sayangggg mak.

okay.
alien yang mau di-tag
credit to cik eiyha

p/s yehuuuuu. hari ni balik rumah. jumpa mak. \(^0^)/
p/s/s entry ni sekali lagi tak dapat meng-ekpresikan perasaan aku yang sebenarnya. aigooo. ayat macam kaku jer. kena amik test bahasa balik nieh.

Friday, May 6, 2011

it is hug and kisses' time


I should say that today was my last day with Miss Natasha and Madam Sari. And today, yes, it is hug and kisses' time... which means... sayonara. And say hello to exam! Third semester is nearly end. Ohh! Jap jap. Snap!

dila.me.hanim. glad to know both of u

Assalamualaikum and hello people. They look great eh with tie-in, baju kurung, those nice attire... everyday came to class, sometimes doesn't show up ( boleh dikatakan terlajak tidur) but you do came, don't you? You inspired me with all cheerful smiles, the laughter, the gossips, the tazkirah and many more. Every time i step into our classes, the world seems different. And here we are... Group 908! You might not know it, but i do. We're like a family, kan? Pleaseeee say so tooooooo!!! Hahahaha.

Selepas ni, maksud aku, kita takkan sekelas lagi, nisa, hanim, dila, dan eiyka. Aku akan tercampak semula. Eleh. Tapi aku tau nanti mesti korang akan merindui aku bila dalam kelas baru nanti, kan kan kan? Hehehe. Takpe. Jangan risau. Korang tak cakap pun, aku dah mengerti. (bajet reti telepati) hahaha.

Teringat pulak ayat-ayat indah bila bukak jurnal yang Miss Natasha pulangkan tadi.
"I noticed your name is always mentioned by your friend but you don't speak much in class. Have the confidence to speak in English, ya!"

Wahh. Seriously?:)
But, lepas baca comment dari Miss tu terus aku buat jelingan maut dekat Nisa. Kerana ini semua kerja dia yang selalu buat lawak tak menjadi dengan aku dalam kelas. Diulangi. Lawak tak menjadi, okay. Per-lish lah. Tapi, selalunya aku tak buat lawak pun Nisa dah tergelak lepas tu cubit aku. Heh! Hengat aku ni suka ke dicubit-cubit. Sakit tau. Okay. Dah namanya perempuan kan? Naturally suka ambil gambar. Here are some pics that i want to share. Hahaha. Sesuka hati untuk ditatapi. They look AWESOME, dude!



class with Miss Natasha

class with Madam Sari

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my roomates. accidently being my classmates

classmates. only girls? where are 4 budak laki? XD

girls next door

pose menarik from our co-class rep. hihihi

Bila tengok balik semua gambar di atas... yeah, you guys are good for gave a nice pose. I mean, literally, gaya dalam facebook lah, kan? All of us. Err... kecuali aku lah. Aku ni mana pandai buat gaya comel-comel. Kahkahkah. Last but not least, ...ceh macam buat essay pulak... Saya Ingin Mengucapkan Selamat Berjaya Untuk Final Exam EPT Kita. Semoga Kita Semua Berjaya EXIT. Gambateh-ne.

p/s esok ada orang nak pergi dating kat MidValley. Wahh. Jangan lupa bawak balik makanan sedap-sedap ye.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Re-type semula...i called it KARA


Assalamualaikum semuaaaaaa!
Okay. Sebenarnya McDonald bukanlah restoran fastfood pilihan aku. Di-reject sama sekali. Tapi lihat di atas sana tu... aku melepak dan bergambar di Mcd? Nampak tak permainannya di situ? Hahaha. Dan burger yang selalunya aku tak larat nak habiskan... biasanya burger mcd aku hanya makan separuh, separuh lagi rezeki kucing yang lalu-lalang kat sekitar situ... tapi kini aku berjaya habiskan sebiji spicy chicken mcdeluxe, mcnugget, mcflurry... and and sambil menjilat jari!!!! owmeygad!!!

Orang kata bila percuma nikmatnya lebih besar... kuang3

Hari ni hari last training karate dengan Sensei Yeong Kang untuk sem ni. Tacing pulak. Huhuhu. We had so fun throughout this semester. Belajar karate. Belajar magic. Belajar err... makan-makan. Hihihihi. And aku rasa lengan aku sekarang dah berotot. lololololololol. And nanti bila aku tengok balik semua gambar-gambar ni mungkin aku akan termenangis. Iye lah kan. Tempat jatuh lagi dikenang inikan pula tempat aku ..............tet! Hahaha.

He said---> you guys are so cute!
And the girls were like... okay. Speechless.
Elehh. Padahal aku nampak korang paling muka then tersengih-sengih bila Sensei Yeong Kang cakap macam tu. Balik dorm terus bergosip. Tapi aku tak. Aku steady and cool saje. Hahaha. Perempuan berjiwa kental memang begitu.

AND...
This is the Kara's moment

fine. tudung aku terkelepet =.="

okay. yang ni smart sikit :p

ehh, apsal sama tinggi? actually aku lagi tinggi tau \(^0^)/

but... i do love this pic. the most. heh heh heh

bila tengok balik semua gambar aku buat peace kan? hahaha.

Ada banyak lagi gambar yang diambil. Tapi...malas nak upload semua.
Semester depan kena buat demo. Kena buat slideshow.
And kena buat bassaidai ( i dunno if the spelling is correct)

Okay Bassaidai.
Yang banyak pergerakan laju-laju tu.
Heh?!

p/s jumaat ni sensei rijal nak datang jenguk sekejap. seiously??
p/s/s aku rasa entry aku kali ni macam tah hape-hape. takpelah kan? aku just nak letak gambar jeeeee.