Kehebatan Penghujung 2011

Dupdap dupdap. Saat 2012 hampir tiba dengan meninggalkan 2011 dalam beberapa detik je lagi. Dan, usia aku juga akan mencecah 20an. No more belasan tahun, childish acts... zaman remaja aku yang kuno dah berlalu. Tiba masa untuk revolusi zaman moden dewasa. Haha.

Anyway, pengakhiran 2011 yang awesome dalam sejarah hidup aku bermula dengan kemunculan 2 ekor babi hutan. Yang betul punya. Serius awesome!  Haha. Selama 19 tahun aku hidup di dunia ni aku tak pernah terserempak secara live dengan makhluk comel tu. Dan peristiwa bersejarah tu menyebabkan aku dan member aku terbeku sekejap. That 'baby hutan' sedang enak menguyah rumput (aku rasa la)... tiba tiba terasa eh eh  ni baby hutan spesis kambing ke makan rumput segala? Well, maybe baby hutan dekat Uia Gombak memang macam tu kot. Oh My God! Dekat Uia oookaaayy. Haha, after that kita orang terus blah sebab aku takut makhluk tu tiba tiba menggila kejar kita orang pulak. Seram den!

Seram seram pun walaupun waktu tu siang buta, aku tetap rasa semacam. Adakah ini petanda?

Malam tu aku ada training Karate. And the good news is, Sensei Samurai pun ada laaahh! First time aku belajar under dia. Dia ajar teknik Kumite. Smart gila. Rasa nak tunjuk terer depan dia... tapi aku memang tak cool dalam Kumite...akhirnya aku hanya berjaya memalukan diri sendiri. Aiyoooo (> _ <)  

Then, after habis training, kita orang semua pergi minum dekat luar Uia. Borak borak borak dan borak sampai 2 pagi. Sensei Iman belanja makan. Hehe gamsahamnida sensei.

Another good news is, yang lagi daboom daripada kemunculan 2 ekor baby hutan (ceh bukan good news pun makhluk yang tu), ada 3 good news. Ullalaaaa.

Pertama, Mac 2012 ni, insyaAllah aku akan terbang ke Indonesia bersama seangkatan member karate. Kedua, Sensei Datuk Hatta akan jadi coach untuk kategori Kumite menggantikan Sensei Alex. Aku taktau kenapa itu good news bagi aku. Tapi Hajar cakap Sensei Hatta handsome gilaaa. So, aku consider itu sebagai good news haha. Dan yang ketiga yang buat jantung aku berlubang sebab kena panah berdas-das ialah kemungkinan besar September 2012 ni, sports untuk karate nak buat trip maybe ke Iran (mulut dah ternganga tak percaya), Vietnam, ataupun JEPUN (waktu ni badan aku dah beku takleh nak respon apa dah sebab excited sangat) & of course lah nak pergi Jepun kaaann? Bestnya bestnya bestnya bestnya.

Aku rasa macam dream comes true. Aku taktau macam nak expresikan rasa gembira aku waktu ni. Aku takkan cakap macam selalu aku cakap "The awesomeness or whatsoever" tapi!

Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih, Ya Allah. Syukran.

Itu cerita tentang berita gembira penghujung 2011 dan aku ingat cerita tu tamat begitu sahaja. Tapi taakk! Aku bukan selalu online if aku stay dekat rumah. Okaay. Hari ni tiba-tiba nak online dan sedang aku syok-syok online, meng-skodeng orang sana-sini, tiba tiba member baik aku tag post kat Facebook.

First time aku baca, terus aku comment "Kau merepek ape joyah?" Tapi ramai gila yang comment after aku dengan ayat-ayat seperti "Waahh, bila sanding?", "Nak datang boleh?", "Tak sangka Aliah kawen dulu", "Tahniah"...and berlambak lambak lagi. Kening aku dah naik sebelah macam Ziana Zain. What the heck?  Terus aku bukak ym, chat dengan dia. Nak marah dia sebab main-main buat post macam tu. Dan alangkah terperanjatnya aku bahawa beliau bukan main-main. Gedebuk! Dalam banyak-banyak orang yang aku expect akan berkahwin, dia adalah orang terakhir dalam fikiran aku. Oh Aliah, kenapalah begitu dasyat berita yang kau kirimkan ni. Aliah yang comel, kelakar, suka buat bising, happy go lucky, tak matang, suka jerit macam budak kecik dah nak jadi bini orang? OMG!

Suhailah... Kau rasa cepat sangat ke?

Dia baik laa walaupun tak hensem.

Dia caring sangat.

Bila aku sedih mesti dia nak jumpa aku kat pj.

Tu la sebab aku rajin balik pj :)

Aku taktau nak respon apa Aliah. Sebagai kawan baik kau, sebagai seorang sahabat yang mengenali kau sejak Tingkatan 1, aku doakan yang terbaik untuk kau. Berusahalah untuk menjadi isteri yang solehah untuk bakal suami kau, isteri yang taat dan setia. ALL THE BEST. Andd sorry sebab maybe aku tak dapat datang majlis kau nanti. Waktu tu hari pendaftaran aku masuk untuk intake degree. 1/2/2012 mungkin aku tengah orientasi. Mungkin boleh jumpa before wedding kau tu. Tak sabar nak jumpa kau. Oh, aku still rasa macam tak percaya.

Mungkin inilah yang dinamakan kehebatan penghujung 2011. Ohh tidaaakkk.

Kadang-kadang rasa stress bila sana-sini orang berebut nak kahwin.

Adakah ini yang dinamakan revolusi zaman moden dewasa?

Entah apa lah yang akan jadi tahun tahun yang mendatang.

Tetiba rasa seram.

Brah. Not Awesome.

Aku tak sepatutnya bukak. Tak sepatutnya. Aku tak sepatutnya pandang ke belakang. Tak sepatutnya. Dan aku tak sepatutnya menoreh kembali luka yang lama. 'Benda' tu tetap sakit walau sebanyak mana pun aku beritahu satu dunia bahawa 'benda' tu bukanlah sesuatu yang boleh buat aku tersentap. Dan walau sebanyak mana masa yang telah berlalu, atau masa yang takkan berulang, nafas aku tetap menjadi semput tatkala aku terlihatkan kelibat dia, dia yang suatu saat lalu adalah dia yang sangat bererti buat diri aku. Badan aku jadi kejang, dada aku jadi sempit, seluruh jasad aku menjadi beku. Sesaat itu pantas berlalu apabila 'dia' yang aku lihat bukanlah 'dia' yang aku maksudkan. What is on earth do I have to feel like this? He's not worth it. It is such an awkward moment when you're mistaken on people to someone else. It feels pathetic. And it feels not awesome.

I am a king & where is my queen?

It's nearly end of December. Bye bye 2011 and helo 2012. As for me? I'm 20, oh that's horrible part. When I was younger, I always wondered how I'll become in the future. It must be awesome! Haha. Dalam mimpi lah. I thought I'll become as...you know...a beautiful girl, famous, attractive, playing tennis, surrounded by gorgeous friends and I also became one of them, has a lot of beautiful clothes, and also a prince beside me. But in reality, I am far from beautiful thingy, people barely know me, I am not play tennis like Maria Sharapova but I am karateka which is, for me to become as 'sopan santun' also faaaarrrr, my friends are not gorgeous but they are awesome, and I am single. Seriously, that's how things go beyond your expectations. All in all, I am still happy. 

I'm 20 in forty days from now. Things are going so fast. I am still not achieved anything that making myself proud but I am looking for it. Anyhow, there's someone told me... ' You're 20 and 20 is too young indeed. It is the beginning of life. It is the time for you to go out there and appreciate the world. Now or never'. So, there's nothing for me to lose. I will fight! Definitely!

Back then, my super awesome life isn't awesome actually. I borned in Perlis then moved to Perak and at age 12, again, moved to Selangor and stay there till now. I am ordinary student. I am not clever but I am not stupid. My friends are my classmates. I am not friendly towards people who are barely I met. Gotcha! I do not have many friends. There's a friend who told me that when he first meeting me, he said that I am a bit 'proud'...I don't know what word would be suitable...nampak macam sombong, not friendly at all. Am I? Maybe. *sigh*

Anyway, at school, I have lots lots crushes. Crushes? Haha. But, it is only crush. I am not a kind of girl who go and confess to the guy whom I like. Helo? Tak mungkinlah. When I'm in Form5, that's my first chapter in love. I agreed to become his girlfriend because he's one of my crush when I was in Standard 6. Actually, it is because he loves me and that's making me love him back. Then, time by time, all my love life became like that. I love him because he loves me first. When he stopped loving me, I also stop. That is not a true love.

So, here I am. Waiting for 'him' to come. The real one. I know he is out there looking for me too. I decided to wait here patiently. I am not searching. I am waiting. I don't know how long it will takes. But, I am pretty sure it'll be worthy. It'll be sweet. We might meeting someone else along our journey looking for soulmates, we might end up with someone else, we might get hurt because of someone else, we might found someone else and thinks he/she is the one, we might feel tired...but remember, don't regret about what already happened, kenapa kita lambat bertemu, and things like that. There's a story behind everything that Allah created for us. There are reasons why things go like that, why you met the wrong ones, get hurt, maybe several times. Because in that way, you'll learn how to appreciate when you meet the one...I mean, when you meet me hehe...one fine day :)

I don't know what's your name, who's your parents, how's your family, are you in the same age with me or not, well I hope that you're older than me but not to old haha, I don't know what's your favourites color but I want you to know that brown color is the best, I am karateka and I hope that you'll supporting me, I don't know how to cook but I'll try my best to cook something special on our first meeting, I am not beautiful and I am clumsy sometimes and how about you, I want to know every single thing about you, about your life, your studies or if you're already on work, your favourites movie ever, your favourites book, do you play sports, do you love cat, do you love painting, do you love travel, are you right-handed or left-handed...etc etc. Anyway, please do find me 10 years from now on. I can't wait too long. Or do you want me to find you?  (> _ <)

Andd the most important part is that, I want you to know that I really really miss you. Do you know Bruno Mars? He's my brother. Next time I'll introduced you to him. After we met. Haha. His songs 'Talking to the moon', specially dedicated only for you.

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back I want you back
My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have You're all I have


At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the moon
Trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon


I am feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah I've gone mad
But they don't know what I know


Cause when the sun goes down
Someone's talking back
Yeah they're talking back


Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,


Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon


I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away...

P/S Currently waiting for my 'Dancing Queen'

Take care!

Pet Shop Hop Tragedy

Aku dah lama tak rasa tension macam ni. Rasanya dah lebih setahun aku hidup happy tanpa sebarang tekanan. Tapi hari ini, yaaa, hari ini tekanan tu datang balik. Rasa kepala macam nak meletup sebab tak tahan sangat. Hari ni hari isnin. Bak kata omputih: Monday Blues. Err..entah aku main taram je. Anyway, pagi tadi dengan penuh excited tahap kanak kanak dapat lolipop sebijik, aku pergi joging pagi pagi buta tu. Yaaa, aku joging dekat Dataran Nilai. Apa? Kau orang ingat aku gebang? Percaya jelah. Aku memang rajin. Aku dah berazam tanak malas dah. Hari hari aku nak exercise bagi cergas sikit badan. Aku nak jadi tough. Baru cool. Yaaa, itulah azam baru aku. Cheh. Dah nak akhir tahun baru berkobar-kobar nak ada azam. But, better late than never, iyo dok? Cheh, bajet speaking. Haha. After joging, aku pun dengan malu-malu kucing prektis buat Kata depan budak-budak yang main buaian tu. Yelah aku tau lah bebudak tu tak tengok aku pun. Tapi perasaan seperti diperhati tu buat aku jadi segan. Cheh, blahlah. Syuuhhh syuuuhhh. Okay berbalik kepada topik asal. Dah penat joging, pekena roti canai, balik ke bilik, tiba tiba dapat text dari Sensei Rijal suruh buat zenkutsu dachi bla bla bla... 100 kali setiap set. What?! Semput nafas kejap. Tapi bila teringat ada orang tuu kata aku takde power terus semangat tentera jepun kamikaze merasuk diri. Dan dan tu jugak aku terus buat benda alah. Hiyaakk hiyaaakkkkkk!!

Then aku tertidur... lama jugaklah sampai termimpikan pokemon. Cheh, ape ke hal? Tiba tiba tersedar bila dengar ada mesej masuk. Oh Harlina text kata dah sampai. Terus aku bersiap turun bawah jumpa dia. Kitorang exchange barang hantaran dan dia ada belikan aku Big Apple yang banyak. Ada 12 bijik. Ternganga sekejap. Haha. Terima kasih Cik Lina. Habis semua member aku bedal. Aku makan sikit je sebab aku tak berapa pandai nak makan. Aku suka donut yang mak aku buat je, yang goreng dalam kuali tu haha.

Eh, jap! Tadi aku nak cerita pasal apa eh? Ohhhh pasal tekanan tu. Uh-huh hampir lupa pulak. Tadi aku online. Cheh, line internet tak boleh pakai. Sekejap ada sekejap takde. Rasa tension yang amat. Rasa nak gigit je member sebelah ni. Haa tengoklah tu, internet buat hal, member pulak yang terluka. Umpama lembu kena kejar, sapi pulak yang semput tak cukup nafas. Selepas itulah terjadinya episod sejarah kembali berulang. Disebabkan internet down, tak boleh connect memanjang, aku pun pergilah main games yang dah tersedia ada dalam laptop aku ni. Cuma aku je tak berkesempatan nak melawat games games tu semua. Dengan malasnya aku pun cubalah main semua games yang ada (tak sangka banyak jugak games yang aku ada sampai tak terjangkau dek akal haha) Sampailah aku kat satu games ni: Pet Shop Hop. Memula main pejam mata je. Peeehh terer gila aku. Lama-lama level makin tinggi of course lah makin susah. Lama lama aku sampai tak terkejar. Tak dapat score. Laju sangat games tu. Arggghh tension. Banyak kali kena repeat. Sampai berpeluh-peluh aku main. Serius punya pasal. Ciss...berani game Pet Shop Hop tu buat aku tension. Kalau tadi line internet down aku macam nak gigit gigit member sebelah, kali ni aku rasa macam nak hempuk-hempuk je member aku tu...rasa nak patah-patahkan laptop acer ni...rasa nak tembak guna shotgun je...rasa nak kick guna mawashi geri je... Haa kan dah terkeluar teknik karate. Haaaihhh...sabo jelah yob! Takper takper. Aku akan berusaha kuat untuk tackle game Pet Shop Hop tuu.

Adoihhh! Kalaulah aku semangat macam gini waktu training Karate kan bagus. Hikhik. Tadi member aku Aimi pinjam kad Popular aku katanya nak beli novel Inggeris, kalau guna kad boleh dapat diskaun. Aku pun dengan rela hati bagi dia pinjam walaupun jauh dari sudut hatiku yang paling dalam antara yang terdalam, aku terasa iri hati. Chewaaah. Sebenarnya iri hati sebab tak dapat nak ikut sekali. Bajet takdeeee. Waaaaa... Tension lagi...

Wawa told me that I was too harsh about 'that matter'.

I am sorry :(

...for not being sensitive.